I am an asshole.
No, really, I am. I shout it from the housetops. "HERE THERE BE SHITHEAD!" I have proven this fact time and time again, right here on this blog. I was an extra-special awful asshole last fall, to one person in particular, and the time has come for me to suck it up and apologize.
I'm not going to name names, or even link posts. But back when my blog was fledgling, still wet-winged and new and I was drawing about three hits a day, I wrote a post tearing into another blogger, someone I'd just encountered at a third party's site. I was offended (spit!) by something this blogger posted at her own site, and wrote a post answering her, calling her all kinds of awful names, ripping her up one side and down the other. I can try to defend myself by saying that I had no idea that so many people visited me, that I had no idea that this post would ever come to the eyes of its object, but that's no excuse for my horrid behavior. It did come to the eyes of its object, a kick when I didn't realize she was down, and I hurt someone I didn't even know.
I know her better now, through this wonderful intrawebnet; daily readings of her site, and tales from my friends - people I respect - of what a good person she is...these have combined to make my respect for her grow, and my sense of shame rise higher, and higher, and higher as the months ticked by.
So, I offer my humblest to the lady, here, on the front page. Yeah, I appended the post in question with an apology many moons ago, but that's buried...and I didn't feel the penance sufficient to the crime. I am truly, truly sorry for what I did, for the pain I caused, for being such a flaming butthead.
She may never forgive, and believe it or not, I'd understand. That, though, doesn't matter. It's enough for me that she know how sorry I am, and that I'd take it all back in a heartbeat, if I could.
Girl, I apologize. You never deserved any of that. I suck, you rule. That is all.
You know who you are.
Posted by Queenie at October 25, 2005 10:26 PM | TrackBackIt takes a strong fortitude and a heck of a backbone to say not only "I'm sorry", but "I screwed up" as well.
I hope all is well in both your worlds now.
Sleep well.
; )
Posted by: Christina at October 25, 2005 10:43 PMI know of which post you speak. I do not know of the blogger. And, unfortunately, it caused hurt feelings.
But!
Listen: I don't think your point should be lost in the shame of it all. Everyone should be blogging about whateverinhell they wanna.
I'm glad you made friends with this woman and that all is well, but you know -- I'm boring the shit out of MY readers, right?
Anyway. Everyone kiss and make up. Bane's got the camera rolling. ;o)
I think that you are the bees knees, girl.
Posted by: Margi at October 25, 2005 10:54 PMQuit calling me "girl". "Lady", I kinda like, though. Oh. Wrong site. Never mind.
Posted by: Velociman at October 25, 2005 10:56 PM